Gentle Execution

First off, if you haven't gone and signed the petition to stop the anti-gay bill in Uganda that would make homosexuality punishable by prison or even death, go and do it right now. It takes fewer than five seconds, and proves your worth as a human being.

Guilt trip out of the way, I've got a lot on my mind lately, not least of which is my money trouble. My own fault, really, but that doesn't really matter now -- what matters is not getting kicked out of school and evicted. =/ Going to do a money spell tonight. And maybe again tomorrow. Looking for jobs, too, and trying like hells to sell my car.

Gods be praised, next week is Reading Week -- that means no school. Well, no class -- I still have to go and get crew hours or I fail Stagecraft BUT I DIGRESS. The week off gives me a chance to a) clean my house, b) read the books I have out from the library, c) write????, d) organize my shit. Etc, etc, etc. Maybe even watch some Battlestar Galactica with Nathan.

I'm probably not going to Spring Mysteries Festival, because money is so tight. However, there is still a chance to go to the Earth Activism Training from July 3 to 17th. I would be applying for the workstudy program, which would halve the cost of it but require me to show up early and leave late. That's ok.

The EAT program is incredibly important for me to go to -- it is taught by Starhawk, who is one of my modern-day heroes, and it's a permaculture design certificate course. It's important on a spiritual level that I'm having trouble articulating, but when I do I'll probably post a lengthy post on my [new] Pagan blog, Innocence and Immanence.

Anyway. Life is life. I live it.

-Katje

special destiny still not realized

Prelude to War

Songs of the Gods

I'm trying to be on top of my music collection right now -- by which I mean actually getting around to listening to some of the stuff on there, and deciding what stays, what goes, and what goes where when it stays. In this process I am also discovering songs that remind me of my deities.

Currently the two main deities I have contact with/worship are Morrigan and Brighid. Brighid is very new; Morrigan has been around for....well, ever, according to Her, but I've only known about it for a few years. Brighid appeared shortly after I first "met" Morrigan, and I freaked out a little bit. Along the lines of "OMG TWO STRONG LADIES CANNOT HANDLE." She understood and left for a while, but now She's back, and it's clear it's time for me to acknowledge Her.

I've joined the Cill at The Cauldron, and now have shifts to keep Her flame. Tonight is my first official shift, though I kept the flame at Imbolc as well. It's become apparent to me through my...conversations*...with Her and Morrigan that this is a fostering type relationship, at least at this point in time. Morrigan is my main affair when it comes to divinity -- that will never change. But right now She's sort of...handed me over, I guess, to Brighid, so I can learn some things that She can't or doesn't want to teach me. Or that I won't take from Her. Parenting is a funny thing; while Morrigan is and is not my mother, our relationship is sometimes similar to a mother-daughter one.

Fostering was common in Celtic culture, so this sort of relationship makes sense. Brighid feels like...well, more like a mother type figure than Morrigan. Also like a sister. An older female relative who watches out for me, and keeps me in line. Two of them.

I have not known Brighid for long, but I have fallen in love with Her almost immediately. It is so pure and true I couldn't imagine life without Her. I also couldn't imagine life without Morrigan, Who I think I loved before I knew Her.

So, in my continuing search to feel closer to my Ladies, I am compiling lists of music that I feel suits Them. The lists are short, because my computer can't handle all my music files, but they'll get larger.

Something Dark is Coming

Have made large updates to this blog, in template, title, and even url. Please change your bookmarks accordingly; it is not maitressekatje.blogspot.com but http://katjeknitwitch.blogspot.com/. Because I am a knitwit[ch]. Totally.

The title and sub-title are references to Battlestar Galactica (the new one).  If you haven't watched it, you should.

I'm going to be updating here more frequently, I hope, and talking a lot about my knitting, crochet, and other crafty projects. For now my public posts about my religion (witchcraft, if you haven't been paying attention) will go here too, until I feel it's time to make a separate blog about that.

Still going by the title of the song I'm currently listening to as the blog post entry. This particular one is from Battlestar Galactica OST S.2.

Regarding knitting: my Raverly profile. Soon I'll have pictures up of my projects. Whenever I get AA batts for my camera.

Peace out, kittens.

-Katje

As Is

If anyone still reads this blog I should think I come off like a schizophrenic ferret addicted to crack.

And I am one of those things, marginally, so I suppose it's a fair comparison. (Schizotypal, for those wondering. Like Schizophrenia Lite. Not as crazy -- better for you!)

I should give a brief rundown of my life.

• Regarding the post I made way back when about my Oma, and her dying...she's still alive, but she's been doing a rollercoaster of health for a long time now. We just don't know anymore. Was fairly sure back when I made that post that she was at death's door. She's slightly better now. But it's touch and go.
  
• I'm still in Nanaimo, and have changed my plans for school like a MILLION times. Currently planning on staying here for a BA with a Major in English and a Minor in Theatre. Still living in the less-ghetto place, but having some issues. Currently looking into a three bedroom detached house down town.
  
• Not terribly depressed anymore, but I have very strange mood swings. Two days ago I was deliriously happy, and now I'm weepy all the time. Go figure.
  
• In a relationship. Long and complicated story that I don't really want made public, but I'll just say he's very, very good for me, and has helped me get over some of the residual heartache from the last two romantic disasters in my life.
  
• Learned to knit. Love it.
  
• Came down with mononucleosis last semester and it's still affecting me, but I work through it as best I can.
  

Those are the highlights -- er, main points of my life in the past six months. I'm going to try and update this blog more frequently. Probably try to copypaste from my Dreamwidth blog whenever I make a public post.

Also you all should go read my friend's blog about his experiences in Europe, because it's pretty awesome.

-Katje