New Beginnings

2009 is going to be amazing and good. It has to be because it can't be any worse than 2008. I know I'm going to look at the incoming new year with hope in my eyes and a feeling that things will work out this time. 

Hope that may get crushed soon afterwards, but c'est la vie. 

2008 has been a rollercoaster of emotion for me. It has been incredibly tough on me -- even the good times have been tough, for a lot of them have been results of major change. And major change is always hard to adjust to. 

This coming year I'm making a...well, not a resolution, because I never keep those. We'll just say it's something I'm going to do. And that is I'm going to be alone. Not isolated, not lonely. Just...alone. The highest point of 2008 and the lowest point both had to do with men. I'm tired of having my life revolve around someone else's. I'm tired of having my emotions go on rollercoasters because of my relationships. From now on it's going to be Katje feels this way because of what Katje is doing, not because of the PMS her lover is experiencing. No more Katjeand[insert name here]. Just Katje from now on. 

I do have some goals for this year as well. Some are listed in the previous entry (more specifically, what I'm going to accomplish by equinox, or March 30th). Others have been made tonight. 

• Write 200,000 words this year on several projects. 
• Finish three books. 
• Write 12 poems (one a month). 
• Publish a book of poetry. 
• Get my publishing company up and running.
• Work through Evolutionary Witchcraft. 
• Look into pursuing Women's Studies as a double-minor (and possibly declare).
• Eat well. Sleep at night. Stay fit.

The standard self-betterment procedures. I hope this time I follow through. I think, though, that I've finally made some breakthroughs in my wall of issues and will finally be able to complete a lot of my goals. 

In 20 minutes my new life will begin. 

Goodbye and good riddance, 2008. 

Hello, 2009. Aren't you a pretty pretty thing.

-Kat